Katie brought to my attention a song written by Steven Curtis Chapman entitled "All I Really Want for Christmas". For those of you that know, SCC is a big supporter of adoption and has adopted a little girl into his own family. See www.shoahannahashope.org for more info.
Here's the lyrics to the Chorus:
All I really want for Christmas is someone to tuck me in
A shoulder to cry on if I lose, shoulders to ride on if I win
There's so much I could ask for, but there's just one thing I need
All I really want for Christmas is a family.
Woah. Although I heard this song last year when it came out, it didn't mean as much to me as it did when I heard it again yesterday. Then things really hit me. Realistically, my kids are alive out there somewhere in Russia right now. I know that we have to go through all the same procedures as everyone else that adopts, but yesterday I really wanted to jump on a plane and go find my kids. I don't feel like waiting. I don't feel like being patient. I need to be their dad. I need to hold them. I need to tell them it's going to be alright. I want them to sit on my lap this weekend and tear through the wrapping paper. I want to read them a bedtime story. I don't want them to be hungry or scared anymore.
Man, this is going to be harder than I thought....
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