We got our courtdate. This is good thing, right? This is what we've been waiting for. So why do I feel so uneasy? I seriously think I feel MORE stressed than I did before "the call". I'm terrified that something is going to go wrong. I'm convinced that Russia is going to shut down adoptions altogether within the next 25 days. I cringe when the phone rings. I'm paranoid that "they" are reading my blog and finding faults with me. (Like the "dojo incident")
I'M FREAKING OUT HERE!
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I may not be an adoptive parent, but this is a typical feeling when you are embarking on something new. YOU are in unknown territory with something you have never done before. Almost everyone fears the unknown. Take a deep breath and say a prayer of thanks, remember Gods strength, and remember none of this is in your control.
I felt the same. And it just got worse as we were getting closer and closer to the court date. Even during 10-day wait I was nervous.
So my advice -
1. I really doubt anyone over there is reading your blog especially now that it's pp. "Do not worry about anything..." (Like V says)
2. Glass of wine tonight with dinner. lol.
3. Sleep. Rest up for your trip!
Katie, our coordinator didn't even want to call me anymore. After the obligatory "hi, how are you" was exchanged, the next thing out of my mouth was "what happened?".
Its natural to feel this way, but it will all work out now. He is off the database, the release letter is there and you have a court date.
I second Tricia's advice, well, make that two glasses of wine. ;-)
I felt the same way as we were waiting to get back over there. I was sure Russia was going to close down before we got there or before our court date, but of course it didn't. Relax, don't allow the enemy to discourage or frighten you. We'll be praying, along with many others, that you will not lose your court date and that all of the details will come together for travel.
Blessings,
Penny
OMG, this could have been my post. Really, you've pretty much said how i've been feeling.Hey,we got our court date on the same day :).
Oh guys, this is such AWESOME news! God is too good to be unkind. Throw off your worries! (Actually, I think I would feel the exact same way in your shoes!) A great read: Gladys Aylward; missionary to China. Talk about detours on the way to God's will but then, whose to say the detours were detours at all?! That's what I believe about your son too. God knew, He knows, and He always will. I'm so grateful that none of the stuff we face down here takes him by surprise! You have a great family and I am so excited that God is finally opening up the way for your missing link to come fully into your love and lives!
Relax--you are totally normal. What you are going through is totally normal. PRAY HARD--I can't stress that enough. Adoption of kids into a Christian Home is a spiritual battle. (I can not emphasis that enough). You are seeking a child to love and train for the Lord. Do you think Satan likes it?? Not a bit. But be of good cheer--we have "The King of Kings and the Lord of Lords" on our side. ;-) You will have challenges after you are home, God willing, with your son--and you will need that same King of King and Lord of Lords. We were warned ahead of court to lie in court (I only share this because your blog is private) so that the Judge would allow us to adopt our daughter. They were sure if we told the truth, he'd refuse to allow us to adopt. When we wouldn't back down, the lawyer and interpreter had a long and serious discussion in Russian and finally told us, "Don't worry--you just please your God then and tell the truth." I told my hubby, "They are planning to lie for us since the Judge won't know what we said anyway!" So, we emailed back to the USA and said, "Please pray that there will be NO LIES involved in us getting our daughter. We want to do this totally in a God-honoring way." The next day, Interpreter whispers to us right before we walk into the court room--"Don't you dare answer any questions with a straight yes or no cause we think the Judge knows those words in English!" (Uh huh . . . I thought so!) Now, mind you, this Judge had a horrible reputation for being very caustic and hard on adoptive parents, and we'd been warned to expect a court session of an hour to 3 hours. Everything was all said and done in about 20 minutes and we were back OUT OF THERE--and he hadn't asked ONE SINGLE ONE Of the questions the lawyer and rep said he "always" asked that they were sure we would have to lie about!!! Not one single one. No lies were involved, just as everyone was praying. We weren't given a bit of a hard time, honestly. The interpreter and everyone was SO astonished.
THAT is our God, and THAT is the power of collective prayers. (When we went to court, it was Wednesday evening prayer meeting time back in the USA, and we know there were at least 4 churches praying for us right at that time--one church even altered the order of their service so they would be praying for us right while we were starting court . . . )
I hope your hearts are encouraged by our story--that is the only reason I shared it, hoping that you would be encouraged to place your trust in almighty God. And . . . know that we will be praying for you too!!!
You know very well why you feel this way. It's an attack. Don’t let him steal your joy. You’ve been through so much to get here it is natural to feel this way but try to reclaim your joy. Especially for the kids sake. I would hate for you all to take off with stress since the kids will notice it and it won’t make parting for so long easy.
I don’t say any of this to offend. I think of you as a strong couple in your faith and I’m hoping you take knowing that it is coming from my heart.
God has gotten you this far just keep holding on to Him.
OH MY GOSH! I just read your news! Yea, you got your court date!
Now, I would say it's completely normal for you to feel this way. After what you've been through, I would be very cautious too. We lost 3 babies in pregnancies prior to bringing Owen home so we kept our hearts guarded until the day we stepped into our house holding him in our arms. It took me a while to even believe we were really going to be able to keep him. It's only natural we (and you) would feel it might not happen when things hadn't gone as expected in the past.
Zac is your son. You have your court date. You are bringing your son home! Deep breaths... God will get you there and bring you back as a family of 5!! :O)
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